Whiskey-Tango-Foxtrot

2009-03-31T08:28:00.000-07:00

Again
between you and me
i am most irked
this is supposed to be a dialogue,
a conversation,
a celebration in time.

in my mind
i am left incredibly frustrated
answering your insinuations
punctuating your emotions

that you will smile
i hope in time
and
we will walk

and stop
celebrate

arrest this constant void

celebrate.

2008-05-23T09:47:00.001-07:00

don't stay and watch me pick up the pieces

between you and me
i don't think you can.

stop - were i you

2008-04-20T04:00:00.000-07:00

why do we do this to ourselves?
if i didn't love you, you would know
you leave me in such a vacuum
each time i say goodbye
how do you manage to string words
that leave you beyond me

each time

can you breakaway from that smile
you say i play these games ?
put me beyond your deceit, but not beyond you

i walk you home most clumsily
the ease with which you push me away

and you say "don't be afraid"
yet, you tell me,
you will turn around
and run
and never look back

you leave me in such void
i can not handle
you just smile
we are back to the start

I will stop asking these questions

When my heart reconciles itself to the fact that all lost was not in love. It will.

between me and you, I am awfully sad.

I perhaps read a page in time that was yet to be written

I am my own eulogy

Written, practiced and delivered several times.

My epithets carved in stone

Words unspoken, lives unlived, all withheld.

Such reticence, such quiet and calm I hope to be

That as I lay rest awake, people, and life

Are awed by the scale of tragedy

There is some hope

As the flame warms your eyes

I collapse behind those white walls

As I leave behind the safety offered through formality of life..

the formality....whisked in a wok of words

I will simply put it:

I love you.

And have missed you.

Even if it does make you cringe to believe in my words.

This is not a love song

Or a preface to a help-yourself, help-yourself handbook

This is me.

And, that which never will be: you.

what a lonely place

As I hold you in these arms

Your calm swallows me whole

And then, you fade away

Like melting glass cascading most beautifully

You turn, you walk away, run perhaps

And no call will ever bring you back

And that is which I fear with such vengeance

sleep haunts me

hours, for nights gone by

I lecture, I teach;

I answer, I reason;

I quiz, I endeavor;

I smile,I lie

I ask with abandon give me back my yesterday

Or a memory that might.

It was a slap in the face how quickly I was defined

A few five words put you beyond me

And with such aplomb, it amazes me.

But I do believe

With some perverse sense of deceit

in sincerity

Life does come full circle

Loving someone has come to mean

Letting some one Else

Love them more

There are questions of reason, of time

Are there any answers?

It is a curse. You tell me

This constant of inquisition.

I tell you.

And here, I try to play these foolish games

I, me, myself.

my sense of unchanging calm has been shattered.
reason and beyond
eleven syllables, five words.
your one sentence
has put you beyond me

you push me back to the start
stop
were i you

2008-03-04T10:43:00.000-08:00

these games we play
you and i

2008-03-04T10:10:00.000-08:00

my sense of unchanging calm has been shattered.
reason and beyond
eleven syllables, five words.
your one sentence
has put you beyond me

silence, please.

2008-03-04T10:06:00.000-08:00

the prattle:
the polite query,
the garrulous reply,
these pretentious conversations.

singapore speak

2008-02-24T09:23:00.001-08:00

Grouch: i'm looking for sacred games by vikram chandra, please

Borders Sales Girl: tha wan must beeyo citeee

Grouch: I'm sorry, could you please repeat that?

Borders Sales Girl: beeyo citeee, tha wan must

(apres 2 min)

Agitated guy in the snake queue behind me "Dude, how tough is that, you must go to Vivo City to get that one?"

Some one knee me in the boys please.

busting my chops

2008-02-23T09:39:00.000-08:00

"Dude, you are the oldest twenty-three-year-old I've ever met"

2008-02-22T00:04:00.000-08:00

i heart

2008-02-12T02:17:00.000-08:00

she's my november girl.

2008-02-10T18:20:00.000-08:00

the diving bell and the butterfly.

it took me places i've never been before.

it took me home.

i wish i could hold on to that forever.

one day, we will all be together.

i promise myself that.

2008-02-07T21:22:00.000-08:00

Prayers, please.

2008-02-05T21:14:00.001-08:00

It was a friend’s birthday.

1. Supposed to go for movie and dinner, but (I am given to understand that) the movie is just a ploy so as to pull together some semblance of a surprise. The movie story bought the "hosts" time to smuggle the cake into the restaurant. So some of the guests can make it only for the movie and not dinner and movie, which since there was no movie, messes up their evening! The drama, my point exactly!

2. Conversation during dinner:

Guest 1: I have lost weight. All I eat is soup and salad, twice a day. Now repeat that sentence 20 times over and is all what she spoke about during dinner

Guest 2: Don't order so much food, don't order, are you sure you can eat that much? Two very awkward jokes followed with even more awkward silence at the table. One, I think was a dig at the firm, Frost and Sullivan.

Guest 3: Did not say a word. Cross my heart. Not a word

Guest 4: Didn't show up. See memo on movie/dinner mix up.

Guest 5: Nice guy, I talk to him, interesting.

Birthday boy: uncomfortably smiling, observing everybody, few sentences spoken.

OMG the pain!

3. Dinner gets over, photographs are taken, Guest 4 shows up.

4. I am exhausted, want to head home. More photographs are taken, I smile, I mutter a few choice words.

5. They want to buy beer and sit by the harbor and drink. Beer is bought, we head to the harbor and it’s a total love fest. Crap. I don't do that. Because. I don't drink beer. And, I don't want to intrude on nervous couples trying to have a moment. I hang out with them for ten minutes or so and then politely leave.

Oh during the 90 minutes that was dinner, I was called "pervert, drunk, old, snob..."

Woe is me. Again.

2008-02-05T01:03:00.000-08:00

i want to text, call, speak with.
HATING the wait.

2008-02-04T01:06:00.000-08:00

The hills and vales of life this week:

1. after two years since the girl and I ended a six-year thing i finally met someone that i really really like.

2. got a free ticket to fly away to Phnom Penh only to realize that they had misspelled my name, and screwed up the dates -- which being a free ticket, meant there was nothing I could do save fork over $350 to change the name/date. Which is SO not worth it for a two-day trip to Cambodia.

3. Heading to Nias for the last week in Feb. Part of a team that evaluates foreign aid effectiveness in Tsunami affected areas. Haven't been to Indonesia - so I really am looking forward to this.

4. Chinese New Year is happening this weekend. Everything is closed in Singapore for three days. But I got called in for a last-minute paper; and will be working dog-hours till this Sunday. CRAP.

5. Negotiating a book deal on health policy with Routledge! More later.

2008-02-01T00:01:00.000-08:00

happy birthday, my dear,
with love, perhaps unparalleled

2008-01-29T21:06:00.000-08:00

Tutorial sessions with the Frosh have gone by OK so far. They are eager to learn and even more so to impress. Luckily, I don't lecture this class. I just assist in teaching i.e. conduct tutorials, hold office hours and work with students who many need extra coaching.

I am done with my academic coursework and other formalities of the graduate program in economics. I still do not have a question that I can letter out explicitly for my thesis.

My sister (currently in Goa, India) and I (Singapore) are road-tripping across Canada this summer. Who knows, it might just come to me driving on the interstate. Well, whatever.

fuck buckets

2008-01-29T20:46:00.000-08:00

Ignorant git of a friend managed to finagle a $17 K bonus with her crotch-rot intellect after working 5 months at 'Hores and Co: Partners at Law'. Why oh Why am I still in academia?

Economic Speak

2008-01-29T20:32:00.000-08:00

On a given day, I am usually indifferent between drinking Coke and its zero-calorie-equivalent, Coke Light. I put in a $1 coin into the vending machine, and due to some technical glitch, my one dollar could buy either a Coke ($1) or Coke Light ($1.10).

I of course, took full advantage of my $.10 consumer surplus!

2008-01-27T00:53:00.000-08:00

1. After many margaritas, daiquiris and gimlets, and table-top dancing this past weekend: the Grouch is giving up alcohol this season. It will be one long Spring.

2. Hindsight, somehow, will manage to knee you in the boys. GAH!

3. I got my teaching evaluation for last semester's principle of economics course. It was pretty good. Best student comment: "I pink-puffy-heart the Grouch".

4. I may have met someone. I really really like.

5. Books read this week: Elizabeth I and Mary Stuart and The Economic Naturalist

2008-01-19T08:23:00.000-08:00

hawt exchange student leaves for Lithuania.

2008-01-09T22:41:00.001-08:00

my best friend is getting engaged soon.
i wish i could be happy for her.
i really do.

prayers, please

2007-12-16T22:35:00.000-08:00

grrrr

2007-12-11T04:25:00.000-08:00

if i offer your ass my much perfected combination of rum and coke. you have two options. yes or no. i hate it when people, need to qualify their choice with, "oh, i don't drink".

whiskey-tango- foxtrot.

right here, right now.

in my face.

i don't care if you drink or not.

mofos

2007-12-06T15:39:00.000-08:00

slipped in the shower.

ignored it

slipped on the staircase

ignored it

slipped in the shower

tore a ligament

on crutches

grading final exams for the frosh

econometrics end-term

Grrrr

Saudi rape victim gets 200 lashes for ‘speaking out’

2007-11-20T05:55:00.001-08:00

Here is the link. I do not want to post the story from CNN-IBN on my blog.

My heart bleeds for this shit.

It is hard to believe that people hold such archaic, repressive, and neanderthal views. What laws govern such states? What retrogressive education to they impart in their academic institutions ? Where is Amnesty and UN now ?

Rabb Rakha, Rabb Rakha.

Jim Beam

2007-11-18T05:48:00.000-08:00

Jim and my close friend Remy were visiting this weekend. I've realized, in their company, I violate my standards quicker than I can lower them.

the double humpy keyboard

2007-11-18T05:28:00.000-08:00

Intelligent design, my ass.

It takes me about 3 hours to conceptualize, research, type, edit and send out a 1000-word paper on anything to do with Pension Reform in Asia, because I am awesome like thatl.

It took me 8 hours to do the same on the double humpy. As the more perceptive of you have figured out, I'm all piss and vinegar about it.

Can't wait for Dell to ship me my wireless regular-shaped keyboard.

Grrrr

score!

2007-11-17T09:49:00.000-08:00

Hawt Exchange Student is totally flurrrrting with the Grouch!

After dinner and drinks at Tandoor, Hawt Exchange Student and Grouch saunter hand-in-hand to Haagen-Dasz (which incidentally in Punjabi means "shit and tell", but I digress)

Hawt Exchange Student: You can have my strawberries

Grouch: *reaching over to get the strawberries, knocks down her entire Sundae*

We try our luck at Starbucks. I try preventing going tits-up again, walk over smoothly, try to be all cool and order:

"She will have a tall peppermint mocha and I'll have an extra-hawt, double-whip, non-fat, de-caff, double-shot, tall, white latte"

Duh Starbux girl: You want a decaffeinated latte with a double caffeine shot ?

Woe is me.

I outta here yo

Om Shanti Om

2007-11-17T09:31:00.000-08:00

is the absolute crotch rot people. Twelve dollars and three hours down the drain. These 12 dollars could have paid for eight fly swatters to be bought and shipped to Somalia. I digress.

Shah Rukh Khan should just retire. Please. Three hours of banal, twisted, vapid and vacuous screenplay. The only saving grace were the Rajendar Kumar jibes. Shah Rukh Khan plays himself: hamming it to the tee. And what is up with bringing the entire Bollywood together in the last song. Why oh why can't we Indian people make better movies?

And please, all you Shak Rukh Khan fans, please go ahead and eat a bowl full of blogger dic*.

Gaah!

2007-11-01T07:05:00.000-07:00

my peeeps

2007-10-30T21:20:00.000-07:00

to the 3.6 people who religiously come here everyday:

DJ Shakes - You ain't down, if you ain't brown

Crany Professor - Embodiment of snark, sarcasm, wit and genius

Crystal Anne - My spiritual Guru

Avitable - witty bastard

Pointless Drivel - for his Halloween costume, he came in his pants

Certifiable Princess - one of the three blogging super powers

yay!

2007-10-30T10:17:00.000-07:00

The Executioner's Song -- Norman Mailer

The God Delusion -- Richard Dawkins

God is not Great -- Christopher Hitchens

I also picked up Think India by Vinay Rai and promptly returned it after reading the first few pages.

Three days of solitude, three books, a bottle of the finest dark rum.

I have been recompensed for the absolute piss and vinegar that the Frosh have been this year. I'm at peace, y'all!

why oh why can't these men learn to tie a turban ?

2007-10-28T04:21:00.000-07:00

Where is the Prime Minister's Fifty ??

WTF is up with Montek Ahluwalia ?

Please, gentlemen, please.

cantankerous old farts

2007-10-28T02:20:00.000-07:00

A wise man once said, "If the Left has a role in the future of India, India has no future left".

Some one please explain to me why is it that governance in India is held hostage to neanderthal beliefs. These cantankerous bastards and their archaic views should be maintained in a maximum security repository with the remains of other fossil collections. They might want to place Harkishan Singh Surjeet next to Narasimha Rao's gargantuan nostrils.

The Left inspired ideology as a question, as a check on equity remains relevant, but it fails miserably as a solution. What infuriates me is that they won't vote on the India-USA nuclear deal in parliament: they walk out instead. A brilliant strategy to develop consensus on a controversial issues, Assholes.

And, please don't get me started on why Manmohan Singh does not wear a fifty.

super bad

2007-10-21T22:24:00.000-07:00

I watched Super Bad last night. It was hilarious. A little slow in the middle, but it was funny as shit. Go. watch it. now

genius

2007-10-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

New Zealand's former Prime Minister, Robert Muldoon, on the possible implications of New Zealanders migrating to Australia:

"New Zealanders who leave for Australia raise the IQ of both countries’"

that my friends is sheer genius.

oh my goodness

2007-10-15T07:37:00.000-07:00

due by Friday

Econometrics Mid-term

Growth and Development term paper

Comment on an idiot's paper

Discuss the Economics of Immigration with four retired HC judges

Work on an Econometrics paper and deal with over-ambitious team member. Please.

Grade 38 assignments, finish feedback for frosh. Notice the alliteration. This is how I roll.

Write a paper on pension reform in Democratic People's Republic of Korea. There is no social security in North Korea, Professor Twat

Deal with the neanderthal-looking and retarded pharmacist who won't refill my prescription.

Grrrrrr

who drinks coke without ice ?
who the fuck drinks coke without rum and ice ?
my retarded flatmate.

the View

2007-10-11T10:32:00.000-07:00

Can I just say Elizabeth Hasselboobs is the crotch rot of The View. She should either keep shut or just go on long-ass vacations.

Also, do read the Age of Turbulence by Alan Greenspan. It's surprisingly engaging.

score!

2007-09-06T08:57:00.000-07:00

Hot Korean Girl: Aww! you are so cute.
Me: *blush*

(30 minutes pass)

Hot Korean Gril: This coffee is so cute

woe is me.

2007-08-31T09:26:00.000-07:00

A story to tell--
of grandeur, bravado and might;
of love, lies and deceit;
of vindication and revenge;
of places beyond the mind;
a story of loquacious prolixity;
of fear, of hope
of horizons lost and time stayed.

a lot to tell, a lot to live
the day is still young.

2007-08-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

A tryst with time:
Life as witness, I ask with complete abandon,
give me back my yesterday
or at least a memory that might.

15-08-1984

2007-08-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

India 60, Grouch 23 !

yay!

2007-07-17T05:29:00.000-07:00

my house-guest has gone home !
woo hoo ! yay!
it's time to kill a chicken, say a prayer, do a dance !
there will be rum and coke, some alize and cheap hooker and humus!
the grouch will get low and nekkid, there will be some streaking and desi gay moments!
hold on to your bail monies, people!

peace, prayer, please.

2007-06-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

In my prayers,

antarjaamee purakh biDhaatay sarDhaa man kee pooray.
naanak daas ihai sukh maagai mo ka-o kar santan kee Dhooray

Baksh le, Baba Nanak, Baksh le.

foxtrot

2007-06-18T05:39:00.000-07:00

From CNN:

Seven children were killed in an airstrike by the U.S.-led coalition on a compound in eastern Afghanistan where al Qaeda fighters were believed to be gathered on Sunday, according to a U.S. military statement.

A U.S. military spokesman said there was no sign of children around the targeted building before the airstrike was ordered. "We had surveillance on the compound all day and saw no indications there were children inside the building," said Army Maj. Chris Belcher, spokesman for the Coalition

"This is another example of al Qaeda using the protective status of a mosque, as well as innocent civilians, to shield themselves," Maj. Belcher said. "We are saddened by the innocent lives that were lost as a result of militants' cowardice."

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1. It was a fucking Madrassa, there will be children inside the building. It's a school. Assholes.

2. I refuse to believe your "surveillance", your NSA provided penny-picture-perfect surveillance could not see the children at the Madrassa.

3. If you were so sure about your surveillance, why did you not go in and get them.

4. 7 children were killed. Militants too, apparently. Congratulations.

5. "We are saddened by the innocent lives that were lost as a result of militants' cowardice". How about "we are sorry that we killed 7 of your children"; "we are sorry our much prized surveillance did not see children in the school". How about just a simple "we are sorry and we pray that their souls rest in peace".

Do not get me wrong. I support the American endeavour to cleanse the world of terrorism. You have the satellites that can read the numbers on a dollar bill shoved up a camel's ass. Use them. Please.

catharsis

2007-06-17T14:47:00.000-07:00

9 years. Nine. fucking. years.

I'm so over you.

Gaffe at the Vatican

2007-06-10T21:34:00.000-07:00

From The Hindu:

The Pope is addressed `Your Holiness' and Roman Catholics call him `The Holy Father.'

But somewhere in the tumble dryer that is the part of the U.S. President's brain set aside for words, the two concepts got tangled and he told Associated Press:

"I think His Holy Father will be pleased to know that much of our foreign policy is based on the admonition to whom much is given, much is required."

No doubt Pope Benedict, whom Mr. Bush later described as "very smart," was able to deconstruct the rest of the sentence.

But before he got down to cases with Mr. Bush, the Bishop of Rome, Vicar of Jesus Christ, Successor of the Prince of the Apostles and Supreme Pontiff of the Universal Church on Saturday had the unusual experience of being called `sir.'

"It's good to be with you, sir," said Mr. Bush as he sat down.

balle-balle

2007-06-09T22:28:00.000-07:00

Clench your butt holes people for the Grouch is about to get low. My spiritual Guru has challenged my ass to a dance off. I have a thesis to defend, a web camera to buy, and an ass to shake.

Whore-boy

2007-06-09T21:05:00.000-07:00

Malaysian PM, Abdullah Ahmad Badawi (67) married his 53-year-old sister-in-law in a private ceremony yesterday in Kuala Lumpur.

Econ 101

2007-06-03T08:57:00.000-07:00

“The governments view of the economy can be summed up in a few short phrases: If it moves ,tax it. If it keeps on moving, regulate it. If it stops moving, subsidize it.”

Ronald Reagan

Overheard in New York

2007-06-03T06:52:00.000-07:00

Clearly Sex Needs More Upsides

Dude #1: How come when you have sex bad things happen, like STDs? Why can't you get sexually transmitted skills, like creativity?

Dude #2: Or jugglin.

from the boxer

2007-05-17T07:32:00.000-07:00

Sometimes loving someone, means letting someone else love them more.

RB

2007-05-17T07:26:00.000-07:00

Opportunist, cheap, greedy, cheat, parochial, liar, competitive, asshole, moral, righteous, crotch rot, economist, timid, ass wipe, spineless, scared, deceitful, snake...

Work.

2007-05-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

I decided to stay back this break and work under a senior professor. I needed the money and he asked. Works for me, I suppose.

Grrr...

2007-05-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

Sodd off you retarded-mechatronics engineer, come near me again, and I will personally: dismember your loins, and eviscerate the rest of you with a rusted fork dipped in bile and cat venom.

13-05

2007-05-12T09:35:00.000-07:00

Love you, always.

Will it ever end ?

2007-04-21T10:09:00.000-07:00

When will the Madness ever end ?

This time around, a 12-year-old boy was used by the Taliban to behead a suspected American spy. 12-year-old ? 12-year-old ? Fucking 12-year-old ?

Excerpts from the CNN-IBN news update:

"A video circulating in Pakistan records the grisly death of Ghulam Nabi, a Pakistani militant accused of betraying a top Taliban official who was killed in a December airstrike in Afghanistan"

"...A continuous 2½-minute shot then shows the victim lying on his side on a patch of rubble-strewn ground. A man holds Nabi by his beard while the boy, wearing a camouflage military jacket and oversized white sneakers, cuts into the throat. Other men and boys call out “Allahu akbar!” (God is great) as blood spurts from the wound.The film, overlain with jihadi songs, then shows the boy hacking and slashing at the man's neck until the head is severed"

What "God" do people like these answer to ?

zoke

2007-01-22T22:02:00.001-08:00

my christain friend; who has on several ocassions met with Jesus, sent me this message at 3:00 AM last morning.
Corinthians chapter 13:4-7.......
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy,it does not boast, it is not proud.
5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, its if not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.
8 Love never fails.....
13. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

true, but have u heard that song, "let me ride that donkey, donkeey''?

Whore

2007-01-19T03:37:00.000-08:00

i swear to beat the shit out of the next evangelistic prick that tries to force his "way of life" to me.

God's child, my ass.

At 6ft3 and more than two hundred pounds; i can kick ass, pretty good.

Killing me softly

2007-01-17T01:01:00.000-08:00

has this what my life has come to ?
i-tone drops at 8:00AM
Losartan Potassium50 mg at 9:00 AM
Amlopress Besylate 5 mg at 02:00 PM
Losartan Potassium 50 mg at 5:00 PM
Amlopress Besylate 5 mg at 8:00 PM
i-tone drops at 10:00 PM

Life at twenty two ? And, you are depressed, why ?

2007-01-17T00:53:00.000-08:00

She looks prettier without any makeup on.

2007-01-15T22:07:00.001-08:00

160/120
this thing is going to kill me slowly.

12-25-2006

2006-12-25T09:07:00.000-08:00

Mary, Kiss My Ass.

Get it ?

S is for Sheila

2006-12-18T02:15:00.000-08:00

Today, I met my childhood friend. She's now a prostitute. She doesn't have to be. She is. I love her unconditionally; I do. I do not want to judge or label her.

I think I just did.